Day 05

A song that reminds you of someone: I would have to say "Seven Times Seventy Times". It reminds me of myself because have been through so much in my life.

Day 04

A song that makes you sad: i would have to say "when she cries" by britt nicole. even thought it has a nice message at the end, it reminds me too much of how i was about three years ago when something in my life sent me into depression and it reminds me of how i can be now when things get bad. :'(

Disappointment :/

You always have to fight and work for what you want because you aren’t as priviledged as others. Up until lately, I’ve never had a problem with this reality, but now that I’m going to college next year I’m finding disappointment. I got into my first choice of the colleges that I applied to and I may not even be able to go there because it’s too expensive. On top of that, my mom said she might not be able to get me a yearbook and it’s my senior year; plus, I didn’t even get to go to prom. I pride myself on being a person of faith, but lately I’ve been feeling like God is never on my side. I know these things aren’t the worst things in the world, but they were really important to me. By no means do I blame my mom because she does everything she can for me. And by no means is this being posted as a way for me to get sympathy; I’m simply venting and if you don’t like it then you don’t have to read my blogs. In simple terms, this year has be filled with much to much disappointment </3

Day 03

A song that makes you happy: "Don't Worry Now" by Britt Nicole

Day 02

Your least favorite song: man...there have been a few of these throughout the years. i would have to say that although i love the beatles, I hate "Yellow Submarine" it's just no bueno

Day 01

Your Favorite Song: oh jeez. um right now it would have to be "Jar of Hearts" by Christina Perri

30 Day Music Challenge

• Day 01 – Your favorite song
• Day 02 – Your least favorite song
• Day 03 – A song that makes you happy
• Day 04 – A song that makes you sad
• Day 05 – A song that reminds you of someone
• Day 06 – A song that reminds you of somewhere
• Day 07 – A song that reminds you of a certain event
• Day 08 – A song that you know all the words to
• Day 09 – A song that you can dance to
• Day 10 – A song that makes you fall asleep
• Day 11 – A song from your favorite band
• Day 12 – A song from a band you hate
• Day 13 – A song that is a guilty pleasure
• Day 14 – A song that no one would expect you to love
• Day 15 – A song that describes you
• Day 16 – A song that you used to love but now hate
• Day 17 – A song that you hear often on the radio
• Day 18 – A song that you wish you heard on the radio
• Day 19 – A song from your favorite album
• Day 20 – A song that you listen to when you’re angry
• Day 21 – A song that you listen to when you’re happy
• Day 22 – A song that you listen to when you’re sad
• Day 23 – A song that you want to play at your wedding
• Day 24 – A song that you want to play at your funeral
• Day 25 – A song that makes you laugh
• Day 26 – A song that you can play on an instrument
• Day 27 – A song that you wish you could play
• Day 28 – A song that makes you feel guilty
• Day 29 – A song from your childhood
• Day 30 – Your favorite song at this time last year

Love

Love

It’s something people are always raving about
Something everyone seek, something people crave and need.
If you aren’t constantly looking for it then you are deemed a loser.
I’ve always stayed away from seeking it
Love can be full of many wonderful things
When you find someone who accepts you
When you feel complete with that person
These things are rare these days
Love is more often full of unpleasant things
It’s full of lies and deceit
People can be unfaithful and hard to trust
Heartbreak is almost inevitable now
And when you fall in love, you fall just as hard when it’s over
And yet, I still want it
After all of the unpleasant facts, why do I crave for a love of my own?
After so many years of avoiding, why do I want it now?
It must be that deep in my heart,
I know that of you try hard enough at something, it has to work
It has to be the same for love,
You can’t just give up when something small goes wrong.
Anything worth having and holding on to is never easy. <3

Finding Yourself

Everyone claims to be 100% real
It would be a wonderful world if people weren’t fake
It’s not easy to be yourself in this world
People can ridicule your for sticking to your values.
Eventually you can lose yourself
And you conform to what other people want you to be
And you do it to make everyone else happy
You seem happy on the outside, but you’re miserable on the inside
You’ve finally had enough and want to find yourself again
You know who you are, but you’ve been pretending for so long
It’s hard to get yourself back
Once you do, you’re relieved and happy again.
Go back to bein you and don’t let anyone change you
Hold on to who you are because friends come and go but you are forever.

Stay True To Yourself Because At The End Of The Day You Have To Live With Yourself

A QuoteI Came Up With

“Life is complex. It comes with the territory of growing up and maturing. All you can do is take the rough times and use them as instruments to make you stronger. Don’t let the tough times get you down because anything worth having in life never comes easily or without a fight”

—	Malissa Diaz

Bad Days

They say that what doesn’t kill you only makes you stronger
Sometimes it feels like what doesn’t kill you only comes back
To slap you in the face and beat you even harder until you can’t get up anymore

Random Reflection on Stuff Going on in my Life

Feels like i can’t breathe. When I’m around you, I always make sure that I’m not making a fool of myself according to your definition. You tell me not to care what everyone else thinks, yet you are the first one to judge and belittle me. You tell me to be an individual and yet when I speak my mind you look at me like I’m stupid and completely disregard me. I should care what you think, but for some reason I do. The inconsistency if your moods and attitude affects everyone around you. You bring others down with you when you are in a bad mood. You mostly bring me down; always trying to talk to me but never opening up or really caring about the things we talk about. I ask for your advice but all you do is tell me that I’m in the wrong or say it isn’t a big deal. To be honest, you do more harm to be as a friend that good. At this point in my life, I don’t need a lecturer, I need a listener. If you can’t do that simple task for me, then I have no choice but to leave you in the dust and move on to greener pastures in my life.

Cross out what you've done

graduated high school.
smoked a cigarette.
kissed someone.(apart from family)
gotten so drunk you passed out.
ridden every ride at an amusement park.
collected something really stupid.
gone fishing.
watched four movies in one night.
gone long periods of time with out sleep.
lied to someone.
snorted cocaine.
failed a class.
dealt drugs.
been in a car accident.
been in a tornado.
done hard drugs.
watched someone die.
been to a funeral.
burned yourself
run a marathon.
cried yourself to sleep.
spent over $200 in one day.
flown on a plane.
written a 10 page letter.
gone skiing.
been sailing.
cut yourself.
had a best friend.
lost someone you loved.
shoplifted something.
been to jail.
dangerously close to being in jail.
had detention.
skipped school.
got in trouble for something you didn’t do.
stolen books from the library.
gone to a different country.
dropped out of school.
been in a mental hospital.
watched the “harry potter” movies.
had an online diary.
fired a gun.
gambled in a casino.
had a yard sale.
had a lemonade stand.
actually made money at the lemonade stand.
been in a school play.
taken a lie detector test.
swam with dolphins.
gone to sea world.
voted for someone on a reality tv show.
written poetry.
read more than 20 books a year
gone to europe.
used a coloring book over age 12.
had surgery.
had stitches.
taken a taxi.
seen the washington monument.
had more than 5 im’s/online conversations going at once.
overdosed.
had a drug or alcohol problem.
been in a fist fight.
suffered any form of abuse.
had a hamster.
pet a wild animal.
used a credit card.
gone surfing in california.
done “spirit day” at school.
dyed your hair.
gotten a tattoo.
had something pierced.
gotten straight a’s
been on the honor roll.
known someone with hiv or aids.
taken pictures with a webcam.
started a fire.
gotten caught having/going to a party while parents were gone

Memories

Everyone has them
Some are good and some are bad
Some are small and others are huge
Some full of love while most are full of pain
Some easily forgotten and others stick to you like crazy glue
The painful ones are usually the ones sticking like crazy glue
All you do is try to let go and make yourself free
Good memories are what you should hold onto; cherish them forever
Memories are supposed to make us happy not sad
Bad memories are there to protect us
They teach us lessons and then we let go
Good memories make us smile when we need to the most
Memories are meant to be let go or cherished and held onto
It’s up to us to know the difference and sort out our experiences on our own
note: i’m not a pro writer. don’t judge

Broken Hearted

what do you do when the person who is supposed to love you the most in the world drives a knife through your heart?
well this question pretty much sums up my day. my mom told me to go to hell today and then she said that she meant it and that she wasn’t going to apologize or take it back. if that’s what love is all about then i don’t want anything to do with it.</3

The Wind

This is some of the randomness that occurs in my head:

I lay in the car and I watch the wind blow strongly. Its huge gusts blow leaves out of the trees and every so often I feel its big arms grab the car I’m in and give it a rattle. I watch as it carries away leaves and I wonder what kind of unseen things this wind is carrying. I feel like there is more to this wind than people think and that it is carrying something other than debris through the sky. Maybe it’s carrying the laughter of children all around so that others may share in their joyous rituals. Or, perhaps it carries music in its strong embrace. Sweet melodies wisp through the sky so that others may hear the gorgeous symphony they make when they combine. Most of all, when the wind is this strong, I think it carries millions upon millions of dreams in its mighty arms. Dreams that long to be reality and dreams that are just put into to place to instill hope in people. They are carried through the trees in hopes that they might be shared with other, and this, I believe, is the most noble and beautiful thing about this mighty and majestic wind. It has the capacity to carry these things across vast distances and beyond so that people everywhere may feel joy, listen to the beauty that is music, and be given hope for a better and brighter tomorrow. That is all a person can ask for and this noble and majestic part of nature that we call win grants all of us that very experience as it whips through our hair and through our lives. :)